Hi everyone! Hope you all are doing good like I am. It’s been
a while again ,but this time, I have good reason.
Hmm! How do I even start this? Ok, Lets see how this goes. this could pass for a testimony or just a recount of a rescue from a dark experience, lol whatever that means.
I entered 2015 with a
lot of plans, ideas to execute and energy to fire me through. Then barely
9weeks into the year, I was really sick, had pile and anal fissure and doctors
were talking operation. Hmm? On my anus? My parents and bros wouldn’t hear of
it, but I was in so much pain I thought if cutting my anus open will relieve me
of the pain, well so be it.
I totally removed God’s healing as an option, imagine? I probably
didn’t even think of it. Hmm! But God, because He loves me soooo much, came
through for me and took the pains away. So my health was restored, but I felt
muddled up, removed from my plans and pretty much confused where to begin from
again. I don’t know exactly why well besides being soo broke but I was
depressed, wouldn’t go out, read, write, talk much or do the things that I usually
enjoy doing. I even stopped going for the radio show I volunteer as a presenter
on. I literally shut down. I was
confused and by confused, I mean I had no idea what I was doing or what I would
do next. I really couldn’t think, so I just
lazy around, slept pretty much most of the time, and watched movies whenever I could
drag my mind to. It was a terrible experience and trust me, I am doing a bad
job describing what It.
All through though, there was a small part of me that wasn’t
ok with what I was doing to myself, that doesn’t think because things aren’t working
according to plan, I should just lock up, and that kept feeding me with
positivity. Gradually I started listening to messages, talks and watching
inspiring videos and I started feeling better.
It was during some of those days I feel better that I wrote
my last two- three posts. And somehow, it was just me talking to myself trying
to pull me out of the fear, confusion, self-pity and whatever it was I was
dealing with at that time.
While all of that was going on, God was orchestrating
something special, pulling a dream I strategically place to happen in the
future to happen. During that time of sheer bleak, God reached down and pulled
me out and set me on a path of happiness. I will share the good news in my next post, be expectant.
Thanks for stopping by.
Love, always.
