Dark Post: God Reached Down for Me

Hi everyone! Hope you all are doing good like I am. It’s been a while again ,but this time, I have good reason.

Hmm! How do I even start this? Ok, Lets see how this goes. this could pass for a testimony or just a recount of a rescue from a dark experience, lol whatever that means.

 I entered 2015 with a lot of plans, ideas to execute and energy to fire me through. Then barely 9weeks into the year, I was really sick, had pile and anal fissure and doctors were talking operation. Hmm? On my anus? My parents and bros wouldn’t hear of it, but I was in so much pain I thought if cutting my anus open will relieve me of the pain, well so be it.

I totally removed God’s healing as an option, imagine? I probably didn’t even think of it. Hmm! But God, because He loves me soooo much, came through for me and took the pains away. So my health was restored, but I felt muddled up, removed from my plans and pretty much confused where to begin from again. I don’t know exactly why well besides being soo broke but I was depressed, wouldn’t go out, read, write, talk much or do the things that I usually enjoy doing. I even stopped going for the radio show I volunteer as a presenter on. I literally shut down.  I was confused and by confused, I mean I had no idea what I was doing or what I would do next.  I really couldn’t think, so I just lazy around, slept pretty much most of the time, and watched movies whenever I could drag my mind to. It was a terrible experience and trust me, I am doing a bad job describing what It.

All through though, there was a small part of me that wasn’t ok with what I was doing to myself, that doesn’t think because things aren’t working according to plan, I should just lock up, and that kept feeding me with positivity. Gradually I started listening to messages, talks and watching inspiring videos and I started feeling better.  

It was during some of those days I feel better that I wrote my last two- three posts. And somehow, it was just me talking to myself trying to pull me out of the fear, confusion, self-pity and whatever it was I was dealing with at that time.

While all of that was going on, God was orchestrating something special, pulling a dream I strategically place to happen in the future to happen. During that time of sheer bleak, God reached down and pulled me out and set me on a path of happiness. I will share the good news in my next post, be expectant.

Thanks for stopping by.

Love, always.